• I finished watching Superstore and The Good Place, and reading The Midnight Library. Usually I’d feel empty inside when a series or book end, but this time I feel alright. Superstore was a typical The Office meets Friends type feel good show and some of the main cast were BIPOC. What more can I ask for? (This opposed to Bridgerton – a drama about women trying to get married… competitively. I couldn’t watch past the pilot.) The Good Place is a very interesting and unique show – a funny take on the afterlife and philosophy. I’ve only heard Kristen Bell sing but she’s also a fantastic actor.

  • I had my first therapy session! I feel great about it and I can’t wait for the next one. My therapist has a ton of experience working with Asian women and is an Asian woman herself, so I’m in good hands. It’s a weird feeling being able to rant for an hour without feeling guilty about the other person’s emotional well-being. She asked a lot of relevant prompting questions about the stories I shared which made me talk even more. Here is a quick summary of what I learnt in my first session:
    • When reflecting on your past, it’s best not to make any moral judgement. Whatever happened, happened. Placing a moral judgement on your past won’t change anything, and so guilting yourself is counter productive.
    • It’s possible for two things to be true at once. Life is complicated.
    • The journey towards learning about yourself and self-care is going to be an enjoyable one. (I can’t speak to this yet but I’m optimistic.)
  • Earlier this week, I brought out my guitar to play some music for fun. Coincidentally my therapy suggested I do some activities that I enjoyed when I was younger. For me, those activities would be playing music, sketching, gaming and reading. I haven’t sketched on pencil and paper in a hot minute, so I brought out my old drawing pad and pencil set. I felt quite delighted after sketching, kinda like this emoji 😌 . I haven’t thought to work with the medium I am used to (pencil and paper) because I wanted to learn to draw on my new iPad. It was my therapist who encouraged me to go old-school in order to minimize the pressure to learn something new.

  • Sesame isn’t responding well to his name as much as before. We suspect it’s because they use his name at doggy daycare and he is slowly accustomed to ignoring it. We’re trying to get him to respond to his name better by going back to basic training. He’s growing to be very hefty – 33 lbs at <5 months of age. I’m not very enthused about having a giant, high-energy puppy, but we’re gonna have to work with that. He also started begging for human food, a notable brand new behaviour.

  • Lockdown restrictions loosened up so we went to have Korean BBQ at a restaurant. It was the first time we ate at a restaurant in months. I really like how there weren’t too many people around when we were eating.